WHY, JUST WHYYYYY.

i finally have inspiration to blog. for the past days,weeks, perhaps a fuckin month? ive basically been MIA to this, at times im just lazy as fuck and at other times i spend a whole 20 minutes thinking of the perfect title and end up with "uhhhhh...." in my mind. so fuck it, too much shit on my mind just let me blurt out a few things..oh you know.. just from the top of my head. first of all parents are gone to the philippines, sooo therefore my only support system is my older sister aka "heres food, ur set, im going out" seriously im trying my best to not be bad for her, how can I settle down to stay at home when she wont even be there herself? question,answer. EASY I DONT LIKE GOING HOME. realtalk, i miss my parents. i actually miss my moms call "anak where are u na? go home now" or my little sister..fuck she may be the biggest little shit but i miss her constant nagging "ATTEEEE" i hate eating fastfood everyday.. i despise pizza or anything that comes with fries. haha shit i need to learn how to cook filipino food or simply home cooked food. anyways i was recently part of a cotillion, which is the very first cotillion ive ever been in. i realized, since everybody is turning 18 this year in my batch there are going to be a shitload of events to attend to when ill still be the youngest and wont turn 18 till after highschool, aye aye fuck you alright? im not trippen im getting mines. haha im gona miss kim's court, having dinner at her house every night, and the drugged version of stephen! LMAO.

so lastnight..ahh.
thats basically all i got to say a big fuckin AHHHH. lets just say i lost a big part of my life however what happened, happened. no time to bitch about it, just handle everthing and 5 years from now me and my girls will be having dinner and one of us will be like "remember the summer before we were seniors when....blah blah happeend" oh and one more thing KARMAS A BITCH =) and being flat broke sucks to its all good my babydaddey got me.. ha ha ha

johntruong: my baby, my love, the one person that never lets me down. thanks boo for stickin there within all the struggles you see me through. i come home to you everyday and sleep in your bed feeling safe with no worries in the world. i cant express enough the way you make me feel nor can tell you how much love we've built together. i fell in love with the idea of falling in love, we both knew what rockbottom felt like.. been there done that type shit? and honestly i dont care much of it as long as you know im the real thing. i may have too much confidence in this relationship.. better having too much then none at all am i right or am i right. what im trying to say is that i love you ok? we'll get far.. trust.. were too young right now to know whats ahead of us. lets battle each day like its the last im tired of seeing good relationships gone bad. waste of time, life, and strength. ill be here whenever you need me, you know that. do what you do and keep me happy, thats all i ask.

im tired, drained, worn out all the feelings opposite from being happy. lifes being a hassle to me right now, i have to take care of so many things that i lost its rediculous. takin it one day at a time and enjoying whats left of summer. events that im looking forward to is cheer camp at uc davis 6-9 and the weezy-drake concert on the 15th or is it 16th or maybe 13th? all i know is that me and john have some crackin ass seats! haha so in conclusion im gona be back to blogging because it made me feel better thinking out loud instead of bottling up everything inside and running like a little bitch to my boyfriend and crying hahah. shiiiittttt. peace, love, and hello kitty.

TGIF

down there was some cute shit huh? you sweetheart you.

my miind is actually blank right now, so ummm mimimimimi BYE!

shimshimshim

be unexpected.

good morning RoseyD! you would have never thought..! im doin it! yeah the blogging thing. shes sleeping and im doing this. i thought i might as well get on this n fuck around =) aye babe, so ill tell ya now i called you to say goodnight and i love you but i couldnt really sleep. i had that 10 from earlyer and i decided to burn 1 right now and blog. i went out to the car n started to burn then i thought wait i should just call vic to just smoke him out. so i called him n we ended up burnin. it was quick , i wanted to be up cuz he was bout to eat then go inside. so yeah, im home now its 150am, i bet your like finally! haha

BITCH IM GOIN IN!!!!


1.RoseyD - (ProNoun) - Jerk. cute girl. sexy no mas el buttio. taco bell. jeri lee. omg. drama queen. OA. weed. blunts. waterbottle bongs. sexy kisses inbetween. fatty bowls. im gettin mines. period. Love.
2.Tucked - (Adjective) - what i am right now. a really great feeling. high. muchies. nomnomnom.
3.Blogging - ( is ) - the shit.

i love reading all your blogs. you write them secretly. u never tell me but, i like it. but man, today was one of those stubborn ass days! every little thing leads to a stupid little argument. and i admit it was all hella dumb. u know we have those butt days haha.. somtimes its hard to come back somtimes u just wanna keep going , its so hilarious i swear under it all i wanna laugh my ass off.hahahaa u know u do to. when ur mad its the cutest shit. its real sexy to cuz u show me how serious u can get. haha i love playing with u cuz u always lose!! haha yeah i said it. your a loser! u never win. u suck lalala im reginerrr im a blogger im so cool haha. jk baby.


my pictures wont work i dont know how to post em!! alot of my stuff i erased. doign this laterrrrrrrrr....

ive been stuck for a while. im just gonna KO. i love you ! muwku.

BABY, ITS COLD OUTSIDE

a full day of miscomunication and confusion. a shitload of "what the fucks's" "relaxx!!" "shutup shit" i guess it was just one of those tough days i had to surpass, correction we both had to surpasss. its hard when you along with your significant other is not on the same level on things. its hard to keep up a conversation without getting annoyed or having the tendency to raise your voice with no point intended. half the time your really mad, and the other half you just get under the other ones skin because its hella funny looking at them mad. orrr at other times ur really not mad at all, but they always think your mad?... yeah stupid boys haha! shit like that will drive a couple insane. im really not the type to be angry for such a long period of time. give me 5 minutes to cool it, then ill be good. i mean, is that too much to ask for? constant nagging constant questioning constant blah blah blah... snip it in the bud! no mas no mas PLEASE. were both tired of this, lets move on from the bullshit and never look behind. badabeem badaboom. im just tryna bring the good times back...

so am i the only person living that hasnt seen the mj memorial? i seen bits of it on the news everywhere and damn truely a sad and painful thing for people all around the world. RIP, thankyou for your beautiful voice.

despite today, depsite every struggle day. i love you. mad,sad,happy,pain,cold,warmth,high, or sober (haha) baby im here to stay. i dont care what we say to eachother, half the shit we do say is coming from our ass. i remember the first stages we started talking you were like "hey lets not get too comfortable.." SO HEY YOU, be coo, take a deep breath and just kiss me u fart hahah NO MAS EL BUTTIO. today was long a day, time for a hot shower, youtube, and zzZzz. toodles

FEAR ME NOT

after crying like a little bitch this morning due to my boyfriend man handling me (sorry chawls if you have to witness alla that cammotion on the daily basis) we finally made peace and went to the movies to watch ice age. movie was funny for about 10 minutes.. honestly i was more focused on eating my little luccas sandwich with maui onion god made chips and an assortment of hot cheetoe puffs and hot cheetoe collaberation with lime (his favorite) all the aminals was cute of course but i was sitting next to the cutest creature of the whole hakuna matata animal kingdom. hehe. after my date, went to cotillion practice. finally finished the waltz thank fuckin god. finished early, and walked home. i love living 5 houses down from kim, "hey bitch can i have 2 eggs i ran out" so ive been thinking... in a matter of a month of and a half im going to be attending westmoor as a senior. i hate when people say "cant wait to graduate.. cant wait to leave highschool" i ask.. why duude? its our time to shine this is the moment to cherish ur childhood. its not like your officially an adult when u leave highschool, yes ur legally to leave home and all that crap but i guess my point is im in no a rush to grow up. i will devour every moment of my last year in highschool, squash beef to whoever, and honestly just have fun and go with it. try to the best of my ability to not cut school and attend all classes with a smile on, ok who am i kidding I AINT THAT into school. let just say this, i wont be the first to dip during lunch just to go in and out... ill be the 2nd :) im excited, i really am. i cant wait to see my parents face as i pick up my diploma along with my family, sisters, john, and just everyone who will be there. i will be successful in life, i just know. its silly how i vision my whole life plan, who knows i can always just pursue an acting career in the philippines.. but neeh ill pass for now. im boring my brains out with this while my baby is fliriting with me over aim.

hurtmesoul24: what u blogging bout
hurtmesoul24: jerk penis head
perkee pink: yes exactly
perkee pink: im blogging about a jerk penis head
hurtmesoul24: HAHAHA MY NIGGA
hurtmesoul24: ill kill your toes
perkee pink: yeah killing my toes will definately benefit you in life
hurtmesoul24: shutup ima whoop dat ass

so i urbandictionary.com it and this got me to lol.
THE RISKY JERK : the risky jerk is a dangerous and ballsy move. you must stand next to your parents bed while they are sleeping, and masterbate. you must complete all the way till the release. the riskyness is doing next to the head of your sleeping parents, they could wake at any moment.

wtf, thats fuckin scandelous and gross. excuse me for my language but WHAT THE FUCKIN FUCK. whatever, im gona eat some watermelon and sleep. im disturbed now hahaha peace out beeznuts.

ACTUALLY I CAN

im a jerk, i know. i give you the most fuckin hardest time, trusst i hella know. i make you want to punch walls and scream from the top of your teeth cus ur pissed off, sure. HOWEVER im your girlfriend, i will always understand you, i am the one that loves you from head to the fuckin toe... nail. your my everything, and i am yours. your hungry, im hungry. im mad, your mad. i love you, your loving me. one word : uncomfortable. whole day, whole thing in my mind. "what are they talking about?" "where did they go, who and why did you see" am i crazy? its a girl's intuition, idk maybe its just me but i felt something wrong in my gut. i really dont know, i really dont wana know. a mind can run its own track ... mines reached the finish line, twas not happy. fuck am i fuckin making sense, or am i fuckin trippen my balls off. this is bad real bad michael jackson.. ugh fuck this urks me, as a matter of fact YOU URK ME. i would kill every hurt emotion for you, i would ride bikes all day with you, i can kickit all day with a smile on my face. baby, not this time. i feel stupid, maybe this is stupid. maybe the worlds stupid? i hate this, i always hate this part. ok back to pizza, bye.

HMM

no, not now, not never.

WOOPS, WAS THAT ME?

i cant do this, im tired man.

YOUR GIRLFRIEND CAN COME TO

its been all about trey songz this week. your girlfriend can come to, ego remix, and all the other ones i put on repeat but dont know the title to. and the whole bringing the laptop in the car thing is becoming a habit.. mm bad boy ha! anyways today was some fun in the sun =) woke up, showered, ate brunch, and went back to sanjose for john to pick up some fireworks at his bro's crib. we lagged a whole 3 fuckin hours, because mr.pretty boy over here is sucha puss he can never get ready on time (i love you honey, i know your talkin hella shit right now) smoked a chop out in the hammick and went to santana row. the stories began when this indian fool flicked us off for this parking spot, john was about to smack on they candy asses! its that vietnamese temper... tsk tsk then as we were walking to find pasta pamodoro i hella caught this one nigga checkin my baby out! my jaw dropped and laughed in his face. lunch was delicious chicken alfredo and parmsiano la la la with round 2 of bread and pesto. pink berry right after with almonds,chocolate chip, and strawberries as toppings. the almonds killed, wtf was i thinking.. cruised around the villa always passing this fine ass broad trying to sell us this blanket slash dress of some sort? iono man.. she was fine and had an accent. john popped a boner lmao! after a hearty lunch we went on a hunt around downtown sanjose for some trees. its not that easy as we expected it to be, and what did we end up with? absolutely no es dro-io. made up for it back in the homegrounds. since my excuse for going out daily is work, i had to make a quick stop to tacobell to get tacos for my mom -_-overall it was a good day. $246 dollar paycheck gone in 3 days, all gravy in the navy. just as long as everyone is happy aint no thang but a chickenwang. like i said i run this bitch. and yes your girlfriend can come to...

IDK, WHATEVER, SHUTUP

so.. i didnt blog lastnight because the laptop went mia. then it magically appeared in front of my doorstep this morning, thanks santa clause for not jackin my shit. the night before was the most shittiest experiences in my life. i broke hella bread just to host my girls at my own god damn house, then ended up with a bitch of a headache half buzzed half high half pissed the fuck off. im not gona complain bout whatever that night, but i will say that i will not put my own time and effort for a recipe to disaster. annnywaaayssss.. yesterday was a good day with the Truong brothers. me,babe,chawls drove off to sanjose to visit kevin at his sanjose home. i swear, i can live in that area. the weather is perfect, neighborhood is fuckin chill, and the porch is so the place to just lay back and kickit. i would smoke blunts all day at the porch. we all ate lunch (steak and garlic mashed potatoes) even had a little cooking 101 from kev bout making of the mashed potatoes in the kitchen because john and i sure did need the advice. after luncheon me and john went to ride bikes around the neighborhood and even bought popcicles at the corner store. visited the very same bench he asked me out in front of academy of blah blah blah, oh yes we had a moment farsure.. haha. played catch with the football and headed home around 5ish.. it was so funny on the ride back. we played games like "who ever spots the first mini coop wins" or "stare thru ur window to people passing by" LMAO. played music and next thing you know it hello ugly ass dalycity and your retarded ass weather.

today: woke up at 11 while he woke up at 330. god damn. lazy mofo alright i dont blame him we went to sleep like at 5am, lastnight was one of those good highs. burned a chop and hella analyzed music in the car. we were laughing at funny ass youtubes and nicki minaj.. shes tight your not. nights like that i hella cherish. i admit i can be that snobby ass girlfriend towards him, but most of the time were just two niggas chillen out. were eachothers bestfriends, i value that to its extent. cooked bacon and hash browns and just kicked it on the couch till i had to go church. summer is good, my stomache is way way bad. situps pronto! im eating steak, my keyboard is getting hella oily. bye fuckers

FUCK ALL YALL

hearts broken, bye.