ITS NOT YOU, ITS ME

why is it you can always make me laugh when im mad as fuck, why can you distinguish my different faces and the emotion behind each and every one of them, why does everythin seem so fuckin great when im with you. flashback to where we first met, noone really knows the story and GOOD that nobody knows shit it gets fuckin complicated truuusst. mmhm i huuurd that. haha (i know your laughing jerk, and now that you found my blog i cant talk shit about you) i still find it amazing that your not only mines but duude you's a nigga fasho. we tell eachother secrets, get zooted, kick back and chill, i got cho back you got mines. the bestfriend i never wanted :) but what i can recall is our very first 'kickit' you can say. i snuck out that night and i hella remember your first call to me. "mm hi i think im lost or i might be going the right way..ect" in my mind "omg omg omg ur so cute omg omg" hahahahah. i got in the car and looked at that big ass smile. my nigga was staring fo days (dont lie you know you were!) right there and then we just started conversating makin jokes and the nervousness went away. he wasnt a cheap date either we ate in and out after our first smoke out PLUS A MILKSHAKE haha most def tryna impress me. it was something bout you that i wanted more of, i loved being around you, i enjoyed your presence pointblank i didnt wana let you go under my wing. at that time i couldnt really clarify if you were tryna holla or simply down to meet a new friend, but if you flirted and dead on stare at new friends all the time WE GOT SOME TROUBLE MR. haha. we just basically took it from there.. surprise visits at work.. casual dates.. simply enjoying what each one has to offer. ok im not gona try and get too corny up in this bitch but let me break it down for you. thankyou john, thankyou for defining happiness into my world. if i was to say you showed me the true meaning of love, call me a fool cus i cant claim that. due to the fact that every thing in life shows me love my parents, my annoying ass sisters, family, weed, friends, seeing other people love drives me to fall in love over and over again. one thing i can aknowledge is that your down to love me when at times i cant even love myself. everybody fucks up, nobody is perfect (if you think your perfect slap yourself NOW... no not later.. NOW bitch NOW!) i admit, i tend to be a handful. i wouldnt wana deal with moody little ms.attitude either. i can be a straight up bitch, yes yes i know! always remember who cleans your room and brings you tacobell, yea nigga shutup. i hella remember our whole "keepin it on the low" phase. that didnt last... and good.. time to show the world your under ReginaDayrit's hands mwahahah "FUCK THE PRESS" right? you're quite something else... you got the best of me. im a sucka, im whipped, yaaaah i said it! ill shout it to! (no... i actually wont) ha its always been a given to take care of you. Regina, RoseyD, Reginerr, all of me. you ready? like you said and i quote "you in all ways,shape,and form kill the brackets in my charts" i aint going nowhere me and you baby just me and you on this one. what can i say, welcome to the goodlife? now lets give them something juicy to talk about.....

i love you Johntruong,

Regina Dayrit