SICK GIRL

too sick too type, so you'll hear about my whines and rumbles tmro.

bye bitches and fuck you to.

CUT DEEP.

man... if you was to ever play me ILL STILL FUCKIN LOVE YOU.

OH, FOREAL?

everybody blogs about problems, how there boyfriends are dicks, and all the other randomn shit that happens in their everyday lives because twitter is way too small to fit everything in.

aye, not hatin.. cus i do the exact same shit to =P

i havent been on this for a while, simply cus i forgot all about it. Now that i see that my bitchass cousin clovelle made one (cus of course she was my number 1 fan) on my blogs, im gona start updating my shit. yiipee..

school : foreals, being a senior aint all that. yeah we look down on all the freshmens thinkin "how small they are" when cmonn im just as small ahem 4'11 nahh ok 5'. i see all this puppydog shit going around it makes me sick! haha jk i hellla remember when i entered freshmen year, i thought i was baaaad having all my friends as seniors cus of my cousin. my mom recently asked me "anak what do u wana be after highschool, u should have a little plan now?" foreals mom, ide tell you but ihave no fuckin idea. can i just slang drugs to my future? im totally kidding -_-

fam: i miss family parties period. i remember having parties almost every weekend in sunnyvale or whereever, i miss my cousins i miss my aunties and uncles. as the generation gets older, everybody does there own shit now... and less presents at christmas :/ haha im kidding again

JT: I think i love you more then i love myself. even tho you can be the biggest DICK of all time, you know we got eachother like pan fried noooodles. damn if this is what love is supposed to be all about, marry me in 10 years ok?

ok this blog was weak, rushing to get ready to hang out with my 2 best bitches and my old homies from burton im juiced, i missed these fuckers

PEACE, LOVE, and HELLOKITTY!!!! asta lavista

NO... NO, LET ME.

there were so many times this summer i delt thru experiences where i told myself "damn this would be a perfect situation to blog about" but never got around to do so. summer is memory lane, by far one of the best summers ive ever had. twas not the usual vacation to the philippines like every fuckin summer ever since i was younger but stayed at home and runned my very own life. parents and little sister was gone for a good month leaving me with ate (older sister). i would wake up, grab clothes, and john would be there. go home (if i ever went home) just to sleep and wake up to the same routine. i was infatuated with the fact that we played the married life waking up to eachother, cooking/going out, cleaned (yeah right), and when we turn off the tv at night we kissed and said goodnight. the feeling was amazing, having no parents to tell u to go home or stay home for the most part. HE was my support system and aknowledging the fact that he took care of me when noone did. i came home to an empty house with no food, love, warmth... shit sucked foreal. i love that boy to an extent where i can stop and say yeah ill take a bullet for my nigga offtop. as week 3 passed, i absolutely hated my house. there was no shit to do having no little sister to bug, my parents flight back home kept delaying because many families like them tried going home back in time for there kids, since school was just around the corner. the day they came home was the day i felt whole and actuall happy to be in my own room again. i hugged my mom and dad so tight i shouted never leave me again! and slapped abigail in the head cus that little fucker didnt even get dark if anything she got lighter. Another huge aspect to my summer was cheer camp, now let me tell you the shit you see in the movies is haha.. so fuckin true. it was held at uc davis and sacramento weather was torching fire steaming blazing fuckin hot, catch my drift? with that being said i left that place with the most darkest tan i never wanted! fuck im so fuckin dark now, but hey life goes on. when we arrived we were late, so as we were approaching the main field we seen hundreds of girls in there color coded outfits each in sections waiting to cheer and yell there asses off. i looked around and told myself, "damn this shit is going to be roughcityyy" everything was a competition how you look, how you chant, the level of spirit your team has to offer. Westmoor cheerleaders are noobs, we had a shitload of freshmens and sophmores looking so lost they looked like puppy dogs. we werent skilled we werent together and that kind of gave us a downfall in the beginning. first day consisted of learning UCA cheers and dances and this other shit i wanted to bullshit. 2nd day we stunted like our daddeys haha nahhh we had private classes on how to stunt the right and proper way because obviously we were doing the ghetto way hahah. learning how to do fancy tricks in the air with ur legs and arms and just doing all that goodshit cheerleaders know how to do. the food was alrightt.. basic american buffet every breakfast,lunch,and dinner. lights out by 10 and must be up by 7 to eat breakfast and down to the field by 8. the schedule was crucial, and all our bodies were sore from all the workout. it was girl world all out, girls mugged, girls envied other girls, girls this girls that but overall westmoor cheer bonded thruout it all and even know we sucked in one way or another we can all positviely say we had fun. life experience, but fuck never again. 4 days was enough being a cheerleader was never a carrer i wanted to pursue in life, yeah fucking right. school is finally here and being a senior sure does feel more empowered then the rest. classes are coo with chill people i never once even had quality conversations with my 3rd year being at westmoor. like i said, im not in a rush to leave highschool however im eager as fuck to start my life not posing as the fact that ur still in highschool. im ready for college, im ready to be grown, although all these words might hit me in the ass when its finally faced to me but whatever i just want to see my future in 5..10..15 years? so here i am on a saturday afternoon straight chillen in my sweats bummin out in front of my laptop and tv. and congrats babe to making a blog, shit's cool huh? vent all u want to it, and it'll never whine at you back (like how i do to you) haha. im hungry now.. asta lavista.

ps; i also went to the weezy concert!! shit was siccckkkkkkk hehe

WHY, JUST WHYYYYY.

i finally have inspiration to blog. for the past days,weeks, perhaps a fuckin month? ive basically been MIA to this, at times im just lazy as fuck and at other times i spend a whole 20 minutes thinking of the perfect title and end up with "uhhhhh...." in my mind. so fuck it, too much shit on my mind just let me blurt out a few things..oh you know.. just from the top of my head. first of all parents are gone to the philippines, sooo therefore my only support system is my older sister aka "heres food, ur set, im going out" seriously im trying my best to not be bad for her, how can I settle down to stay at home when she wont even be there herself? question,answer. EASY I DONT LIKE GOING HOME. realtalk, i miss my parents. i actually miss my moms call "anak where are u na? go home now" or my little sister..fuck she may be the biggest little shit but i miss her constant nagging "ATTEEEE" i hate eating fastfood everyday.. i despise pizza or anything that comes with fries. haha shit i need to learn how to cook filipino food or simply home cooked food. anyways i was recently part of a cotillion, which is the very first cotillion ive ever been in. i realized, since everybody is turning 18 this year in my batch there are going to be a shitload of events to attend to when ill still be the youngest and wont turn 18 till after highschool, aye aye fuck you alright? im not trippen im getting mines. haha im gona miss kim's court, having dinner at her house every night, and the drugged version of stephen! LMAO.

so lastnight..ahh.
thats basically all i got to say a big fuckin AHHHH. lets just say i lost a big part of my life however what happened, happened. no time to bitch about it, just handle everthing and 5 years from now me and my girls will be having dinner and one of us will be like "remember the summer before we were seniors when....blah blah happeend" oh and one more thing KARMAS A BITCH =) and being flat broke sucks to its all good my babydaddey got me.. ha ha ha

johntruong: my baby, my love, the one person that never lets me down. thanks boo for stickin there within all the struggles you see me through. i come home to you everyday and sleep in your bed feeling safe with no worries in the world. i cant express enough the way you make me feel nor can tell you how much love we've built together. i fell in love with the idea of falling in love, we both knew what rockbottom felt like.. been there done that type shit? and honestly i dont care much of it as long as you know im the real thing. i may have too much confidence in this relationship.. better having too much then none at all am i right or am i right. what im trying to say is that i love you ok? we'll get far.. trust.. were too young right now to know whats ahead of us. lets battle each day like its the last im tired of seeing good relationships gone bad. waste of time, life, and strength. ill be here whenever you need me, you know that. do what you do and keep me happy, thats all i ask.

im tired, drained, worn out all the feelings opposite from being happy. lifes being a hassle to me right now, i have to take care of so many things that i lost its rediculous. takin it one day at a time and enjoying whats left of summer. events that im looking forward to is cheer camp at uc davis 6-9 and the weezy-drake concert on the 15th or is it 16th or maybe 13th? all i know is that me and john have some crackin ass seats! haha so in conclusion im gona be back to blogging because it made me feel better thinking out loud instead of bottling up everything inside and running like a little bitch to my boyfriend and crying hahah. shiiiittttt. peace, love, and hello kitty.

TGIF

down there was some cute shit huh? you sweetheart you.

my miind is actually blank right now, so ummm mimimimimi BYE!

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